Reminders

You pop into my head
You come into my life
I allow you in
And you walk right out
It's very hard to ever think of a time that was
Slowly it's starting to sink
That time has come and has gone
So now that there's nothing no longer there
All I do is just stare
From a distance within reach
I see the life I knew
I miss it I miss me
For where ever I turn it's a reminder of you
I want to forget I want anew
Today's heartaches will guard me from my past
As mother once a said "this to shall pass"
For the pain in my heart lingers and it's deep
Time can tell if I will heal
For we all change hopefully for the best
I just no longer want to be reminded
Someone help me cause it's on every bend

Without A Trace

I see you in my sight like a radar
 I know where I know how far and you are fleeting
The gap grows bigger and I lose you from my sight
I switch to sonar to try and hear you
There is no response and I can't figure
The silence is alarming the distance painfully far
I question and ask the thoughts linger
Was it by choice?
Was it forced?
What can I do?
Where do I go?
What is my use?
And who do I run to?
Confusion, anger and excitement all course through me
mixed feelings and a lot of questions...


when you go without a trace

Burried Treasure

The knife that cuts so deep.
A lasting scar that just won't heal.
In time the wound will close.
The mark reveals a time I once knew.
Thought my chest will ache for ten thousand days.
The pressure so intense I can not breathe.
The lasting imprint of you is this.
For when we exchange our final words.
They were so short and haunting.
I will forever be jaded about true love's callings.
For they just are words with no true meanings.
They can cut and hurt but I won't be beaten.
For there was a time I can recall they meant something.
And those are the times I will keep as they stay lost in time back when they had meaning.
I will be sad and upset but forever in your debt
3 years of my life is hard to forget
The joy and tears through our laughing years.
As I sang to you the night we first met.
If we ever ever meet again

distance

light cloaked by fear so many questions but no answers alas another light on the path dies no help is on its way the lone survivor laying on the road the cold dew creeps from the forest as shadows rapidly moving in injured, hurt and disabled however still alive the cry can you hear it? trying to match the sound masked by howling winds he does not look back nor shows reluctance alas some hope in the distance headlights...

life cycles

heartache and break ups never are the best the only thing to do is to just keep it in your chest i thought it was over that i had gotten off the ride we say that relationships are like roller coasters ups and downs twists and turns highs and lows and at the end of it all we end up wanting more and then we find ourselves right back in line going for another go I had been with someone for more than a year now and i think they are just the most wonderful person in my eyes when they can be but i just felt like where was something missing something i cant put my finger on and i guess someone else comes along and the one year relationship i knew was gone. ill be writiing down the feelings i feel on a daily basis on how im coping with the break up. this person was my one and only i thought yet again that this time it was for keeps i might be writting in poem or not but this is the only way i can purge my thoughts out. so here i go i call this "life cycles" i may not be tall or handsome or cute i may not be white or toned or incredibly smooth i gave you my heart and said just keep it but someone one else comes along and it all you did was chuck it you tell me those 3 words day in and day out empty words from someone who just broke my heart there will be a day we will meet again till then i just cant seem to find what to say I just cant imagine a world without you but i just have to accept that its just not meant to be for i have given you my pride my life my happiness and my all my thoughts my feelings my secrets and my soul for when i love i love completely i just couldnt see this not once not for a minute im sorry i fall short from all the things you are looking for but what can i do im just a boy its life and we go through all its cycles i guess this load is done time to get the next one loaded